At first glance, your story doesn't look like a 2chairs artist case but it is. Do you remember the first time when you felt yourself sitting on two chairs?
All the time! The bulk of my professional work over the years was to capture the key points and the atmosphere during corporate events. On this „chair" I have to be professional, reliable, observant, considerate and put myself in second place. I am very comfortable on this chair! However, the appearance does not always represent my inner feelings. Sometimes I wonder if I do muddle along and even think aloud at an event, as I do in private. As I said, I need to keep practising because I make mistakes all the time. And where best to practice and try out new things is obviously in private, which keeps me fit for the work, and this is the other chair. I would say this is more experimental, unpredictable, free from constraints, and vocal. This work has my fingerprints all over it. I like to create images which are very simple, low key and local yet universal but with a deeper meaning and best of all, being able to tell a story. Objectively both end products are similar, they are taken with the same equipment, and both show „pixels in a frame", and yet they are so different. I like the term amateur photographer as it refers to the the love of photography, so I sometimes consider my self as both a professional and an amateur, so perhaps in this respect I feel as if I have been on two chairs all the time.
Can you imagine that you should choose only one role? What would it be? Can you separate them or not?
Considering my age, I would love to be able to become a full time artist, because events are literally exhausting, although it is interesting to experience how my clients are booking me more for portrait sittings. But the satisfaction of producing an image which speaks to someone, enough for them to buy it, as a piece of art, is undoubtedly the best compliment anyone can have. So that is the wish!
Do you feel any pressure from any parties, e.g. your customers, colleagues, art galleries, your instagram audience, etc.?
This is a good question. Actually I do not work well under pressure, by that I mean when I get the feeling that everything depends upon my performance alone. I think this is why I was often booked as an event photographer because my role is a subordinate one. Not being center stage, but being respectfully observant. Pressure also comes from competition, which I actively avoid. And because I work alone I don't feel under pressure. If at all I put pressure on myself to create the best work I can under the circumstances. Consequently I do take all my work very personally. I am often under the impression I am doing something unique. However, after joining Instagram late in 2019, I began to realize I was on a well-trodden path.That was a hard lesson, but I have come to terms with this now, as I tell myself my work is still unique to me, I don't copy other work, and even I, don't know what I will be doing next! This is liberating and exciting as each post is like a mini vernissage where one can meet the artist. I do take it seriously but also with a sense of humor. However I don't know how it is „judged" alongside other works, although judge is the wrong word, it should be all about enjoying the exchanges and tremendous diversity out there.